Disappointed

Whew what a weekend! I am still recuperating, it did not go as planned but ended up having a good time regardless. Phil came up on Friday night and stayed over we had a movie night and attempted to get to sleep early. Saturday morning we got an early start and headed down to the city for the remainder of the weekend.

We were in Jersey in the early afternoon dropped our stuff off and headed for the path train to meet Phil’s mom for lunch. We ate at this wonderful little restaurant in Columbus circle and had a few drinks and some excellent food. After lunch, Phil and I headed over to Starbucks on Christopher for some coffee and relaxing, headed back over to Jersey to start getting ready for our night out at Club 57.

We left Jersey at around 10:20 and headed over to the club, we were on the VIP list since Phil is good friends with Tony (the DJ who was spinning that night). I have never seen so many people waiting in a line to get into a club before I immediately thought it was going to be a good night. We bypassed the line since we were on the list and were escorted inside immediately, got our bracelets, put our stuff down, and waited for everyone else to get in. At around twelve the place was so packed you could not move I could not even get to the bathroom without being elbowed by someone.

I still was hopeful and in good spirits since Lady Gaga was supposed to be arriving around two and putting on a “surprise” performance. At two they pushed everyone back in the VIP section and put up a rope to keep us from getting onto the stage, the excitement was unbelievable. Phil and I were right in the front against the rope we were thrilled, had the camera out, and ready to get pictures. Well, it was a black drag queen impersonating Lady Gaga and not Lady Gaga herself. Everyone was disappointed and annoyed to say the least since the club falsely advertised and said she was coming when they knew damn well she was not.

By this time, we were so annoyed and tired of being elbowed and smacked in the face because there were way too many people in the club to even move let alone dance, so we decided to leave at 3am. We headed back to Jersey and were settled in for the night and I ended up going home in the early afternoon.

Overall, it was not the weekend we had hoped for, but managed to make the best of it. We will never be going back to club 57 since it is horrible inside and poorly managed, definitely an experience but I am so glad to be home and relaxing finally.

Cigarettes Are Making Me Broke

I got some uplifting news yesterday, since the Lady Gaga concert was canceled and I was somewhat devastated I figured I would not have a chance to see her now until her next tour. One of Phil’s friends is a DJ and he is spinning at a local club in the city this weekend. Rumor on the street is there is a chance, a good chance actually that Lady Gaga will be making an appearance. I planned to attend to watch him spin anyway so this will work out wonderfully if it is true.

On another note, things have been tight this month so far with money I feel like I am struggling so much just to make ends meet. I really need to quit smoking because at averaging a pack to a pack and a half a day is killing me. They are running at about $9.50 a pack now. Smoking is probably the worst thing I could have ever picked up and I only wish I listened to people when they warned me not to smoke.

I have tried unsuccessfully on two different occasions to quit smoking one was with the patch it lasted about a day and I could not take it anymore. The second attempt came about a year later and I tried to quit cold turkey and using the patch neither method worked. The new pill Chantax I believe it’s called is supposed to work great I know a few people who have used it and were successful. However, I have a lack of health insurance right now and I could only imagine how much money this would cost me so I will continue to wait and hope I can get the strength to quit.

Karma Is Watching...

I was so excited for my birthday gift, which was going to see Lady Gaga. Not only is that amazing in itself but also our seats were in the second row and I have been looking forward to this for months. Phil and I find out on Friday that the show was canceled since Gaga was suffering from exhaustion and dehydration. The venue contacted us telling us the show has been canceled and the steps we need to take in order to get a refund for out tickets.

Phil and I were both devastated and it is not being rescheduled so we are shit out of lock on this. We decided to go ahead and go through with our plans for the rest of the weekend and try to enjoy ourselves despite our bad news.

I am not going to lie I was so upset and I kept thinking, “My life sucks I have the worst luck ever, and things couldn’t be worse”. Well Friday night when Phil and I sat down to watch TV, we saw the live coverage from the chaos that is going on in Haiti. It made me feel like such a selfish bitch for complaining all day that I was unable to see Lady Gaga in concert.

It made me realize that I’m sitting here complaining and thinking my life sucks when these people in Haiti had everything taken from them. I have shelter, I have food, I know my family is alive; I am not stuck under thousands of pounds of cement from destroyed buildings. I am not lying on the street trying to sleep because there is nowhere to sleep inside and I am not injured and praying that maybe someone will come and rescue me.

Everything is put into perspective for me in that moment and I realized my “problems” were not problems at all. Listening to reporter’s interview people from Haiti made me realize how good I have it and made it made everything I thought was important not seem so important afterward.

So yesterday I went to the bank checked my account balance and donated 50.00 to the Red Cross to assist the people there is anyway that I can. I am struggling with this economy like everyone else and I realized I don’t have a lot of money or material things but I have more than these people have therefore and I am going to try and help in anyway I can. I urge people to donate anything you can afford, not matter the amount every little bit helps and you will have the satisfaction of knowing you did something to help someone else in a time of need. So please reflect your lives and realize how fortunate you are no matter how “low” we sometimes feel I truly believe that someone else always has it worse.

Remember karma is watching and give back to other people because I am sure you all would hope someone was going to help you in your time of need.